Lately, I’ve been waking up with this continuing dream of me winning the lottery. My heart is racing, theres a smile on my face and then I open my eyes.

And all of that disappears and all I hear is the cofffee maker spewing coffee and my alarm clock going off at 6:50am. I blink twice and let out a big sigh. 

So for a few days I was excited to go back to sleep, cause I was so curious where this dream was leading me. But as of last night, waking up has been a big DUD. 

I’m a bit in a limbo state of not sadness or happiness. But confusion and questioning my decisions and demanding there must be something more to life. 

But I don’t know. Life is tough, but shit do I know what I want. Maybe I’m just being a little bitch about the studying I need to do and finding a way to logically state that: I’m Lazy. Give me a Beer and some Mind Twisting Movies and let my nerves calm this weekend. 

Listening to: One Republic - Good Life. Is there any One Republic song that is bad?